Found the One

Sooooooooo. i finally found the man of my life. i love hime to death more than he or anybody else could know.  i love my boyfriend. and i dont care what any body else says.

my fault

its my fault. not his, he cant blame him self. i should have known what she was doing to herself. those scares on her arm weren't as bad as Ive seen. but they were still cuts. i should have stopped her when i felt something wrong with her. now she gone. we don't know for how long. 3 days or 6 months. god i hate this.

Shot for nothing

Every day I feel as though Ive been shot point blank in my heart. I dont know why but I do. Every day it feels worse and worse. And I cant get it to stop. Right now Ive just given up on it. Love me then hate me. Thats how the world treats me it feels like. I dont have enough love left to care. I just dont care or guve a damn anymore.

2 in 1 blog

1)Obsolete
I'm obsolete to everyone. they don't care. they are practically avoiding me.
i feel hated by them. at least i have others to keep me sane.


2)Does he really feel that way or is he just hiding it?
Okay.So I'm talking to one of my friends who i like a lot. and no. he isn't from the last 1 or 2 blogs.
this one different. and I'm pretty sure he just said that he just likes me as a friend.
Ive talked to some of his friends(that are also my friends too)and they say that yes he might like me. so ill wait. no different from now any way.seems like ill always be waiting.always falling and can never be caught no matter how hard any tries.

Me

http://new.music.yahoo.com/videos/natasha-bedingfield/soulmate--44295405

4

okay. so there are 4 guys.
1)he is well...someone i like allot. and i mean a lot. but i cant date him. why? cause he already has a girlfriend. and if he were to ask me out he could do better.
2)this guy is just special. him and the first guy make me laugh,happy,and makes me feel wanted.well everyone else does that too. but i guess you get what i mean.
3)he is just differnt.but he lives far away and doesnt want a grilfriend.so oh well.
4)im just friends with him.i dont even like him like i like the other guys.

i hate this.being alone. its not very fun walking around school seeing everyone else.i might as well give up.

Lies

Ha. you lie. you said that I'm not kept out of the loop. liar. i am. and I've got a pretty good explanation to why to. every serious encounter that i see or hear i turn it into something funny. its either that or everyone thinks I'm emotionally weak. well fine. ill just be the damned emotional,mental,and physically punching bag for people.